Here Now

I am alone again 

sitting at a desk

flicking between pages that im not reading

tugging at the edges of that empty space i hold inside

opening programs just to close them

falling in love with ideas

and online personalities.

thinking

what about me could ever be so interesting?

I could cease and the world would roll onwards

I did 

for months now

and those around me feigned surprise at my return

pretending they had noticed my absence.