“We’ll have you take this and see if symptoms improve”
you say as your eyes crawl from my gaze to my incessant leg.
“things like that should go away in time”-
Again,
i am drawn to sadness
because it is easiest to throw on others.
The warmth I seek
is not found in my own smile
or eyes
and i know
that happiness is not
a pill you take in the form
of other people
but I am afraid
to let myself feel
something else again